Well, I have to say that the whole experience of divorcing after almost 40 years of marriage was certainly humiliating! So on beginning this sixth chapter in Julia Cameron’s book “It’s Never Too Late to Begin Again,” I wasn’t sure humility was something I needed to work on anymore – or ever again!
But as I worked my way through the chapter, I found a different way of looking at myself, my marriage/divorce and my life.
Humility, as I understand Julia’s explanation, is accepting that nothing is perfect, that everything and everyone is unique, that perfection simply does not exist. Not admitting this, not asking for help when it’s needed, can be a huge block to moving forward in life.
Through the memoir and tasks portion of this chapter, I tried to take an honest look at who I was 30 years ago – not through the filters of criticism and regret, but as I would see another human being.
I realized that I did lots of interesting things during those years when my marriage was far, far from perfect. I had creative ideas; I cared about others, some with all my heart; I put myself, who I am, out into the world.
I wasn’t perfect, and neither was my ex, but maybe we both did the best we could, as the people we were–simply being human.
I need to get on with my life and make it the best I can. I need to swallow the arrogant pride that tries to hide my imperfection, my humanity.
And if that means asking for help, well that’s okay. Truly, don’t we all need help sometimes?
I need to admit that I need help with budgeting and living within the tight confines of my post-divorce rather grim financial situation. It’s been difficult, and I’m not succeeding. I’m going into debt and I’m terrified of the future.
I do know someone who can help me; someone who is better at budgeting, who can point out strategies and solutions. All I have to do is accept my imperfect self. All I have to do is ask for help.
I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal. I own, however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps. Mahatma Gandhi